As it is a new day, I am attempting to see it in a new light. My feelings have not changed. I still am sad. Although, I am trying my hardest to hold on to things that I know bring joy to me and maybe that will make me feel better. So, I've decided to share with you the day my son was born.
After unbearable amounts of pain and no pain meds, out came a little 5 pound 13 ounce baby boy. They plopped my bundle of joy on my chest and asked me his name. My reply? "Camerin" his name was to be "Camerin Lee Santiago" Lee was after my grandfather. He was the most beautiful child I had ever in my life laid eyes upon. Perfect in every conceivable way. I knew when I saw him exactly what my mother was talking about all these years. The unconditional, undying love that you have for your child. I was willing to jump off a bridge if that's what he needed to survive. Later on that night his father changed his name to "Joel Lee Robinson" and my baby boy right then really was perfect. That really was the first day of the rest of my life. He has brought me joy on a level that I never thought possible. He loves me always even when I'm mad at him. Even when I'm yelling at him. And even when I'm at my lowest point. I am so happy to have brought him into the world. Being a parent can try your patience. And my son is mostly an angel but sometimes he can get to me. If I focus on the positive, though, everything is wonderful.
After talking out some things, I think my fiancé and I have made up. Its so hard though. I don't think that I should be held accountable for when things go bad because sometimes I have no idea what is going on in my head. No idea at all. Well, that's all for now.
Peace and Love
Crystal Robinson
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